so.lifes been alright.pretty depressing but alright.reflectively i thought about some stuf during class and i almost wanted to break down and bawl.i dont know whether its maniac depression or just the wanting for a good cry.

anyhoo,my "host" family has treated me exceptionally.i knew this from the start otherwise i wouldn't bother moving in. (: we have steak on regular tuesdays and eat out wensdays because of my aunt's commitments.we're distantly related by marraige and i believe that their care has encouraged my attendance in school.i mean seriously, other than the slinking away periodically to the sick bay at the pretense of being sick,i actually have 100% attendance and im not eeven ever late.*psh* effectively,objectively means that if i dont continue gyming soon i'll be a huge as a pregnant cow.yep,people will say what a fat cow!*sigh*

ball is in a month,so not only will i be fat,i'll kinda be dateless.apparently nasstasia's trying t get me this pretty good looking date but he's prolly worried about me being a freak and is VERY hesitant on the offer.who kknows maybe i am a cow,just not yet pregnant.havent met the guy before,but for his wishy-washy-ness i feel like giving him a nice hook.-_-;; ok this is getting violent.i got my dress which cost about $400 odd.its aqua-ish satin and im happy with it,seeing how it has a cute train.all in all tix and limos and all other costs make this a super expensive event(nearly 1k).just for once, i wish i could have outright,full blown fantastic fun.im pretty sick of feeling mediacore all the time and being bored.

this country isnt very accomadating.