i just remembered.

i wanna blog now cos my friend is a serious dumbass. her situation is somewhat like mine because no relatives are around for her.i guess thats why she clings so badly to her boyfriend.they have been going out for a year now and they broke up a few months ago.i guess because she relied on him heavily for outside entertainment since he has a car and the convinience he represented, she became quite attached.not to mention the year's affection.they've broken up many times before but this time was more serious because she felt she couldnt live with his demands. i mean wtf hes a paranoid psycho who wont allow her to have a friendster account,no msn, no male contacts on her mobile.. and no males in a meter radius sort of personality. the most shocking part was me discovering she had black oh-che s on her arms because he beat her.like seriously,i think hes a hot headed guy.but apparently he apologized terribly afterward.i thot this sort of thing happened in the movies.but anyway aft they broke up for the last time she felt a loss, being so reliant.she always claims she misses him but to me i think shes dependant on his entertainment.when u live in ur little room in a large house and a homestay guardian, its really hard to feel alive.despite quite abit of my counselling she felt depressed and eventually went to see him a day at a time occasionally.on thursday after being at his on wed she came to school with a swollen lip and cheek.i deducted that she was slightly hysterical after his announcement he wouldnt send her to school and she had to be at an important excursion.he was being a dick, i dunno maybe cos she broke up with him but he refused and she began to cry.maybe she was screaming so he got mad and clamped her jaw with his hands..she said she felt like she was suffocating because her nose was stuffed with mucus and she felt faint.he then bit her on the cheek.like seriously WHAT THE FUCK WAS HE DOING?!!?!argh.

then yesterday i was talking to this girl.she is, i guess socially inept.she hangs around the more popular kids they do not treat her badly but they wouldnt be exactly best friends.

we were waiting for our (car) rides and talking then she brought on the topic of boys.
her : why do u think boys dont like me?
me: um.....*akward silence* i think ur really nice, you shouldnt worry about it.
her: ive been having the same friends but no guys ever like me
me : oh..
her : they've always been mean to me.in primary school some of them said *mumble mumble(couldnt hear)* they'd kill me when they grow up.
me : what?!*awkward laugh* uhh..they were only kidding..im sure when you're a little older they'll be heaps of guys to date
basically shes a very nice girl who has pimples,with a rash kind of blush and a lisp because she has braces..shes short-ish and im not being mean but she looks a bit retarded, like wide-eyed and pale skin with high forehead..i find it really sad but i cant help..she obviously doesnt have a good-dress sense and how do u help a girl whose friends probably dont ask her out to gain "exposure". we talk about this guy she likes who is pretty hot, in my opinion.and she thinks she has a chance.though i think he has a really nice personality, his obvious answer is a no.i mean, for god's sake this chick who has a stick up her arse cos she thinks shes hot and smart gave him a blow job at a party and they werent going out!!obviously his social status compared to hers...she wanted to express her feelings and im worried for her.she told this other chick whose nice and popular to wait for her at a particular spot but she didnt go and she waited the whole of lunch..sometimes its just so hard for the popular isit?!god.anyhow she wants one of them to tell the guys to pass it on to peter gieve(the guy who got the blow)..does she really expect him to say b my gf?


how heart-rending.its scary, this world of unpreccedented events..esp in this day and age.