I saw 曹格 on 娱乐百分百, yes i was couch-potatoing.he was so cute and affable when dealing with some fans who were playing games i fell for him.(nevermind my elitist behaviour okay)his singing is rather laudable so now im constantly listening to his songs.the blog title's change came from this and also the fact that chinese can "pun" well.alluding to the fact i like cam-whoring and the song's( 两只恋人)contextual meaning that i appreciate.

after reading jamie's blog which i was very surprised to see since she always gave up posting,haha(pot calling the kettle black,sorry) but her para abt God was touching.anyways, 曹格's blog too, got the wheels turning a little.

after so long, despite grumbling about being stuck in a rut they both made me feel like i had to choose between nightlife/love and seriously studying/churching.曹格 has no life because he works and every entry of his is like "desire to love". but anyway, dont make me out to be a bimbo but for me, here and more importantly in Uni, anticipation is one thing and planning is another. I know i could possibly spiral down the drug path if i rave there because of the big parties in melb and syd.otherwise, looking at it love-wise and social constraints is confusing.very repetitive i kno, but the thing is IT IS SOMETHING THAT BOTHERS ME ALOT.like seriously.i want to do well, complete honors and all but like i hate being routine=lax in attendance.otherwise falling in love is stupidly taking up alot of time.okay i think many people wont understand what i just said but its ok.after all, this IS for me to jot and sort my thoughts.

mmhm.sex has been on my mind for awhile.not as in me personally but you know, many friends of mine have recently lost their virginity. i keep thinking, is it something treasurable anymore?people have different opinions but i was thinking of it as a secular influence.

Questions that I should answer after all this rambling :

• white or colored?
• studying or partying?
• love or weight loss solution?

okay its nearing 5am.going to sleep and drinks tonight, finally, alcohol to dull the senses.